Forkt

I think this is another fork in the road. I think it's a major fork in the road. I have a big decision to make.

Leave and go somewhere else where all of my friends are and do what I enjoy, but be trampled upon a bit.

Or...

Stay and suffer but still do what I enjoy. But be unhappy.


I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so so so so lost.

Ambitions

I fear that my family has more ambitions and plans for me and for my future, than what I have dreamed of for myself. It's great. I'm just really scared that I'll let them down.

Last friday, I had a huge revelation. I don't think I've ever really felt God's presence, until then.

I hadn't really cried about God, until then.

He is here with me. He's in me. I am so thankful that I was brought up with the knowledge of God. I have always attended a religious school, and I've learned about God and Jesus and the ole' Holy gang since I was pretty much born. And finally after almost 16 years, I really know. God exists.


Thank you for that revelation. I don't feel so alone now.

New Season, New Start

Every season, I try to clean my slate. I figure the earth is changing, why not I change too? Autumn--my favorite time of the year. It's a time for Harvest. Time for forced family gatherings. Time for the wind. Time for my 16th birthday.
Autumn 2009 is particularly exciting because for Thanksgiving/my birthday, I'm going to Samoa. Random, I know. But it's free and who gets the opportunity to say, "I went to Samoa for my sixteenth birthday." And traveling is my favorite thing to do and I really want to add more countries visited to my list.
This is my second blog. This summer was pretty interesting and now it's over. It's gone forever and you have no idea how happy I am about that. I got too caught up with the idea of "maturity". And frankly, I don't care about trying to be experienced. I'm all about taking my time now. I need to be mentally prepared before I do anything more. At least summer taught me to become more patient with life.
Sophomore year has started up. It's been stressful, but that was expected. I've found good people to be with. They were around last year, but I never realized it until now. Makes me happy to see that people like me for who I am. I like sharing the same hobbies as my friends too. In the midst of high school, I make friends, keep friends. Get close, grow apart. Drama-esque stuff. We all know how that is.
To end this, I'm just going to share with all of you that(whoever you are): my dad might send me to France next summer! :D So in the spirit of France, we're making Coq au Vin, listening to French radio, and I'm reading My Life in France by Julia Child. Que genial.

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