Forkt

I think this is another fork in the road. I think it's a major fork in the road. I have a big decision to make.

Leave and go somewhere else where all of my friends are and do what I enjoy, but be trampled upon a bit.

Or...

Stay and suffer but still do what I enjoy. But be unhappy.


I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so so so so lost.

Ambitions

I fear that my family has more ambitions and plans for me and for my future, than what I have dreamed of for myself. It's great. I'm just really scared that I'll let them down.

Last friday, I had a huge revelation. I don't think I've ever really felt God's presence, until then.

I hadn't really cried about God, until then.

He is here with me. He's in me. I am so thankful that I was brought up with the knowledge of God. I have always attended a religious school, and I've learned about God and Jesus and the ole' Holy gang since I was pretty much born. And finally after almost 16 years, I really know. God exists.


Thank you for that revelation. I don't feel so alone now.